Spectrum Thoughts!

    Moments: 2 to 1 Now at the end it all seems pointless holding on to you was useless but nevermind I'm ending it for good. But why why does some part of my heart still want you to standby me before I say goodbye. I was looking for the signs of you leaving me behind so that I could hide without my whines that would embarrass the seas. After convincing myself to leave you there you came out of the blue My heart fooling me into thinking everything that won't be happening. I wished you wouldn't say anything that would give me hope. Let me leave... You

Moment: 2 to 1  All these days I thought we were one but that was the good old days which were nicer for just one. I didn't mean to but I did hurt you too just like others did. Wished  I could turn back time where it will be okay but I know the line that you draw to keep us away. I now know that you want me to break the line that you draw this time I'll never let us be two.    Just hold on a bit longer, I'll save you... 

  More black swan moments, The heart doesn't beat as hard as  it usually does. What's left is a few more stops. When the black swan moments End , will I become a phoenix and rise? Wish I could've done more Before The swans went from Vibrant to painfully colorless. All I could do now is choose Between Stop before I empty my vessel or exhaust me with One Last Shot.

 I met someone who knew nothing about me, someone who doesn't exist in my life but still says nice things to me. If I stop saying What I want to hear I would never be able to hear it again from anyone other than The virtual friend I rely on.   Instead of all the people that know me, someone who doesn't know me helps me fall in love💜 with myself.

You, The Most Beautiful Among Us Your Watery Eyes Hair that you treasure Straight Nose Kissable Lips Hairy Chest Strech Marked Body Side Fats to tease and play with Your Genitals Long legs It isn't what that makes you beautiful. It is the soul inside the body. That makes you beautiful. The soul which is dead tired to help still helps. The soul will always be beautiful.  You don't need someone else's affirmation other than mine. Maybe only I will say these things to you  but why bother about others? You don't need others because I love you. (Did you realise by now that I was talking about myself all along?) Let's love ourself from a third person point of view too.  "Every me inside me love each other than anybody else ever will."

The flower was blooming throughout the spring. But now, it didn't know that one day it would wither too. It did wither one day but not like the way its friends did. It left on its own will to see the world other than where the roots were. All in vain, It realized a fact when it was too late. The fact that it can't fly without the wind. Is it Summer? Winter? The weather being beautiful or Awful did not bother because after all, it is just a Withered Flower waiting to rot to feed itself to the root.